Wednesday, July 28, 2004

This past weekend I went to Vegas for Amy's bachelorette party. I don't remember part of the night. There are holes. I do know that I did some very bad things and I think there are some pictures out there that could prove to be incriminating....yikes! Oh well, it felt damn good to blow off steam. I sure as hell needed it. We all had a great time and it is so great that all the bridesmaids get along with each other.
We started the night off at Coyote Ugly and went to three different places ending up at RA. Things are blurry. Amy had to wear a veil with penises on it and we had a list of tasks she had to perform. These included dancing on the bar, dancing handcuffed to someone and getting someone to buy all the bridesmaids a round of drinks.
Then this Greg guy from New York showed up....

Today was my last day of work. I feel like jumping out of my skin for joy. I can't contain anything anymore. There is this thing that always happens in school, the last five minutes of class are always the longest. That is how today felt. I got through it though and this big weight is now lifted off my shoulders. It felt so weird cleaning out my locker. Weird in a good way. Right now I don't know what to feel about leaving this place I called my second home for the past 19 years. I know I feel joy. I know I feel free. There is another feeling there as well, not sure what it is though. My future is uncertain. I don't know anything. I only know that I have my family, my new sister and Rachelle, Lyndsey and Brandon. For once, I am not insatiable. For once, I think that is enough. I don't need anything else and I don't need anyone else. I don't even need to dance on a stage anymore. My living room by myself is more than enough for me.


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