I did it. I did it. I did it. I did it. I did it.
I gave my two weeks notice. I was so nervous I thought I was going to get yelled at, and persecuted. But, it went far better than I expected. I feel like a big weight has been lifted off of me and I am free. I finally did it.

In other news, the wedding is in three weeks and if I have learned anything from going through all of this it is that I DO NOT WANT TO GET MARRIED! It is too much of a hassle. I swear all this crazy stuff it is amazing anyone lives through that day. Well I can't say I will never get married. I might in 10 years or so, but no time soon that is for sure.

I have lost a few pounds. I am doing really well on my diet and I am running about six times a week. I did cheat today however and feel very guilty about it. it is funny how one can eat so healthy and then cheat once and feel like every pound lost creeps right back in. I think deep down I know cheating one day won't do any damage but I am still sitting here thinking I just wish that chocolate could come right out of me. I should not have had a cheat day. I will not have another cheat day until the wedding and then after that no more cheat days. I hope I don't gain any weight from todays cheat day. I must have had 2,000 calories today...maybe even 2,300.

This is what I am thinking. sarah Michelle Geller is about 3-4 inches taller than me and yet we weigh about the same. So I should technically weigh less than her. She is perfect. She is skinny and perfect. No one thinks she is anorexic looking either.


I have a feeling something big is about to happen in my life. I have no idea what that is, it is just a feeling. Like a buildup of an explosion. I wonder what it could be.